is not i don't want . is i can't

kvn,
i am reali sorry... last night when you ask me wether i realy decide to break or wanna be with u... i don't know how 2 answer but in the end i say i want 2 break. maybe you will feel that i am playing. you asked me izit i don't love you already. no. i still love you. i still miss you. but juz that i feel long distance relationship wont last and i don't wanna be hurt by you again. moreover what you want i cnt giv you. i am sorry. i said tings that will hurt ur feelings. i dun mean it but i guess is a fact. everytime when i tink about you. i will tink bout how you hurt my feelings . . . then my feelings towards you wil slowly fade away. it's hurt letting you go but it hurts more if i don't let you go. i hope you understand my decision. you say that after 12midnight you wont change your decision and i said okay is because i don't wanna cont getting hurt and cont being sad anymore. lasttime when someone tell me " loving someone doesn't mean have to be 2getha " i dun understand what he mean.... i dun wanna understand... but when im in this situation. i totaly understand that i love you but i dun dare to be with you. juz a simple love from me to you is enough...

dii,
i am really sorry. i tink i hurt your feelings. jie juz can't have anymore relationship and love for now. i hope you will find someone that can treat u and care bout you more than i do. i guess you will hate me or someting but i will always be your jie. dii muz know that in this world there is so many other more girl.... not only one. so seek your happiness.... don't waste your time....

to both of you... i am truly vry sorry i hurt both of your feelings. maybe u will find that i am cruel but actualy making those decision made me even sad. but i have no choise. what i can say is i am sorry.

love,
lisa

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