what should i do?

haiz. i don't know why suddenly feel so down. i don't know what is happening around me anymore. feel like giving up. i hate myself for being so good. being so good got what use le??? what i will get in return? nothing. but why must i still be good? really confused le. feel like ending this right now. i who also don't want. what i also don't want le. just be back myself. i guess i will be happier without love. why must i think so much. first was cy . now m? i wan to end this. i dont deserve to be this confusing. maybe falling for you is really a mistake. if i never fall for you we will still be friends. will still be happy. wont be so confusing. but why fall for you le? i also don't know. feel like crying but there's no tears. why? i also don't know the reason. why must i suffer like this? am i regreting now? i am sorry. maybe all of this is just a mistake. but i really don't hope to see you hurt an innocent girl. i really don't know what to do next. really don't know wan how anymore le. someone please help me. sobs sobs. why is loving someone so hard? why can't things be simple and never complicated? ishz. don't know what time i will sleep tonight. tomorrow have to wake up early and work somemore.