i am sorry

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i thought after break up everything will be alright.but why must you suddenly appear back in my life and telling me things that i don't want to hear. i am sorry if i hurt ur feeling. i don't know what u say is true or not. but i guess is true. but if my friends know this they wont believe what u say. but i don't know why i believe what u say. after break up u continue loving me but i fall for others. why must u not hate me??? why must u tell me that u can understand because i need someone to care me??? why must u so understand me ??? why??? why cant u just give up and leave me??? what i wan you cant give me. and what u say i wont trust u de. u know that. i am always feeling unsecure by the things you say. i also don't know why. but this time u really melt my heart. but no matter how i wont be with u even i love u. u are too far to be love. you cant be there for me when i need u. u send me a song that is what u wan tell me. you say u train hard because of ur future. i understand that. i never stop u from training. but i hope u will stop loving me. don't say that u love me is forever. there is no such thing as forever. you say u don't hope anything from me. u just wan me to be happy then u will be. u say u everynight don't dare to msg me because u dun wan to wake me up from my sleep. u understand because the next day i am going to school. i don't know why the things u say really touch my heart. but i am afraid u will be like cy . when i want to accept u , u will leave me. i am sorry. i cant do it. you ask me stop saying sorry. because u cant stop crying. i don't know what u say is true or not. but i am really sorry if i hurt ur feelings. i suddenly make me love you but i still cant be with u. i know u need someone beside u to support u for ur sea games. you say after ur competition you will be back in pg and u cn accompany but i am sorry. i really don't dare to fall for you and be with u anymore. but as i know falling for you is not a mistake. is a right decision. just that i don't dare to accept it. i am sorry. i hope you understand my feelings. i feel very sorry to you. i hope you will understand that loving someone doesn't mean have to be together. but i still hope you will forget me and move on. please.

lisa

12.07pm